Where to begin.
6 Hours sleep.
Followed by 6 hours of pain.
Maths, Painful. Chemistry, Painful. Study (sit in silence with nothing to do because I have been at school for 1.5 days and haven't actually received any actual work), Painful. Study of Religion, Painful.
Lunch wasn't much better either. Alyssa has gone, and I think the rest of the group are just a bunch of ignorant people cause they truly do not understand why. It may have something to do with everyone choosing Russell over Alyssa and even ditching her to talk to him. During lunch I only spoke about 20 words, and only when I had to. I only got called gay once today... Surprisingly. I was expecting a whole lot more.
For anyone who is actually wondering, I'm not gay, however, I get called gay a lot cause I am slightly (more than slightly) effeminate and straighten my hair. Yes it hurts, but after years of being called names, you begin to get used to it. Now I don't even notice it.
I am so tired but I can't go to sleep cause I need to watch NCIS.
I have also been worrying lately about my future. Up until three weeks ago I wanted to be a lawyer. However, I went on Legal Studies trip and saw a trial. I must say, it looks like one of the most boring, tedious exercises in futility that could ever be created. So now I want to write novels and screenplays and it is my dream to be able to direct a film. I just don't know how to get there. I am hoping that my film reviews blog is enough to kickstart a career in writing or film journalism perhaps. I plan on seeing the careers advisor and seeing how she would suggest going about achieving this goal.
Everyone at school is talking about schoolies. Its all i hear about. "Oh, I can't wait for schoolies. Airlie Beach is gonna be so cool." There is no one that has an original thought to go to somewhere other than Airlie Beach for schoolies. I want to go to schoolies but I doubt I will be allowed to and I need someone to go with. I am actually thinking of spending the week with my cousin in Brisbane.
Carrie has informed of her plan to get me to ask someone to the formal. I really don't feel that I have been given a choice in the matter and I am struggling to understand how asking a girl to the formal can not be seen as having romantic undertones.
Anyway I think it is probably time to go. NCIS is just about to start and I am no closer to solving my group issues, my future hopes, schoolies or formal. My quote for today is from the Nine Inch Nails song The Wretched.
"It didn't turn out the way you wanted it, did it?
It didn't turn out quite the way that you wanted it."
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